I agree with others on the anger - try to release your H and accept he will do what he will do when he will do it. Anger is pent up emotion that wants to release. It's best to take responsibility for it and release it in your own ways - ie: not directing it at anyone, just getting it out. I sometimes used to throw stuff across the room as hard as I could - but it was always something soft that didn't do any harm, primal screams in the car, punch pillows and so on.
As for the potential D, I would just do what feels best for you and what is the right path in your heart. Don't worry about him taking responsibility (you don't get to control him after all) - just be responsible for your own life and make choices that best work for you.
Hope you enjoyed your special day :)xx
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
