Not sure what to do

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So, first I am new to chat rooms so I'm not sure how to quote yet, but thank you to all who replied. I already feel welcomed and like water appeared in the desert. Second, thank you for the cheers on drug free. I hope you appreciate how odd it was to claim to be a drug addict when the drugs were supplied by a doctor, maybe not so strange these days. Third, one piece I left out, my therapist who is a doctor officially diagnosed me me with type 2 ADHA... I had never known, but when I read some psychology studies of women married to men who did not know the men had ADHD they all ended with the likelihood of an affair out of desperation. I sent that to my wife and she said it was identical to her experience. Last, I might be plan B, but I should say that I do believe her affair is a symptom of something far worse in her past (emotional abuse, incest/rape, absent father,am drunk mother) I should say that her and I have been off and on for 22 years, with the longest together for 6 years of marriage which resulted in our 4 year old son and we both have a single brief marriage to others in our past. Ok, more may come out in other posts and let me say right now, I am fully aware that I am still in love with this woman, her sleeping with another man is not my main problem I can get over that, and I am completely aware I am so ridiculous right now that I may be over justifying....I came here for the truth of strangers proven to be friends. Thank you in advance.