You've been a good friend and continue to be so. I really appreciate your opinion.
If I go dark it will be for myself. It just seems I go more grey, recharge and get on with my life only to have to talk to her at some point and it feels like starting over again in terms of having to detach. I'm not used to the two steps forward one step back dance.
My conundrum with the dog is the same thing. I'm debating and wanted some opinions because I want to make a decision on this and move forward for good, but I may just have to accept the dance will continue for now.
The other thing is DR efforts vs. personal motivations. Yes I remember to think of me first, and DR efforts if they are comfortable to me. I'm the type of person that pushes himself so it is hard not to get carried away. I need to remember the priority is me now, hard to step back from the provider role and wanting her back in some sick and twisted way.
I'm going back to boot camp tonight and hope to have figured some of this stuff out. By looking at my bookshelf one would think I've got some major problems.
