Out of in house S - On My Own (11)

[vise82]

Hey, thanks for the replies Melo, pinn and rich4j.

Yesterday I was tired, cam home form work and just went to bed and slept. Didn't get off the bed till it was morning.

Its a lot to deal with. The day before I was watching a movie. At the same time I missed my boys and I just seen them that morning.

I think I need time. To let everything go through me. to feel the pain. I am going to have to step up and get things done.. To stop feeling sorry for myself. It is getting me nowhere.

I will see the kids at soccer. I think the hardest part do far is the feelings that come and go for W. The closer would be nice so that I would not feel as much pain anymore. This is just something I never imagined I would have to deal with. I thought marriage was forever. I was blind to the reality. But to some degree it is, as the experience will be with me forever.

Routine is starting to set in. Time is starting to go by. It saddens me that there will be no summer family trips this year.

I need to start moving forward. continue to be the best man I can and have the best life I can with my two boys. That all start with the home. My focus needs to be on finishing setting up the house.

One day at a time.