lfm, your instincts are spot on about Mc right now, unless she is ready to commit to your marriage without someone else in the way, Mc will most likely be a waste of time.
also, good insight on the letting go. you are very apt with the concept that you haven't truly let go...one clue will be that you are still very worried about letting go
yes you are right. it may have been anotherstander who mentioned to me some time ago, about how you think you've dropped it, weeks go by and there you are with the rope still hidden behind your back. letting go is not easy, it is not easy at all.
give yourself time, give yourself compassion for what you are going through. make a point to do something just for you, a reward (for lack of more clever expression right now) for all your efforts, take a few moments to yourself.
