Being there to help v going dark:balance

[Surfer]

Ups and downs at the moment but today feels great! I really feel to be GAL. I also am losing any 'need' for my WW and I don't feel sad at that. I feel happy. I feel independent and happy. The kids are happy too. My wife seemed okay this morning when she dropped them for me to do the school run. I guess she seemed a bit frosty but okay - I just said 'have a nice day' (she didn't say much). We have a mediation soon - I don't even fear that now.

So what's my point? Okay I drop the rope (it feels dropped right now), then what? Just wait stay dark, minimal contact and GAL? If that's it - I am loving it, and I don't know if I want my WW back. If I do she will have changed (unlikely) will be doing the chasing and will have to compete in the market (not that I am anywhere near having a relationship at all). She will also have stopped putting her girlfriends before her H and M (& children) and will treat me with decency and respect (as I will her). I just don't think she will do this.