[BrightFuture]

Rouky, thanks for stopping by. I don’t know if I feel like I’m an inspiration, but thank you for the kind words.

Job, as always, thank you for your insights and for your support, and for cheering me up . I think you are right, my H thought I would stay where I was when he left. My friends always told me that H would be very happy to hear about my good news (read “good news about my life”). However, this time, even their comments didn’t project that at all. I do have a feeling that H is actually not that happy about my news this time. Hence, the angry comments about me not even wanting to be at the vacation home at some point and my clothes that are still in “his” closet.

As for the replying to H’s texts, most of the times I don’t do it right away anyway. It actually happens naturally, I just don’t see them right away, as I’m busy doing stuff, LOL. I don’t know if he knew that I was on the business trip (quite possible, because my mutual friends knew about it), but it did feel like he was kind of “checking in” with me. Job, you are probably right here as well, that he was just trying to make sure I didn’t forget about him, LOL. He texted me asking for some info he needed for our company which I obviously didn’t have. I replied back that I was on a business trip to X city and could only get this info to him when I get back home. He then texted back suggesting some places to see in that city I was at, hahaha.

Interesting part it that I don’t think he needed that info right away, actually he probably didn’t need it until this week, if at all (some insider info…)

BTW, he almost always responds to my texts right away. The only text that I can remember recently that he didn’t respond to was a Happy Father’s day one. I get it, job, about putting him on “pause” once in a while. Like I mentioned, it actually happens naturally. I don’t think I’m putting any intention into it any longer. It is just part of me moving on and not thinking when and what to respond to H. Feels very liberating!

I think part of H’s frustration is that he “sees” me doing things he thought I would never do and some of these he wished I would do. With him, of course… And now, I’m doing these things with other people or on my own. He told me at BD (when I was trying to bend and address all kinds of possible issues he had with me) that people never change, and I would be the same negative, nagging and unhappy person he saw in me. Guess what! I’ve changed! I re-discovered who I truly am! And I didn’t do for him (oh well, maybe at the very beginning), I did it for me. I don’t care if he comes back or not, I will still be the same person I’m today, and even better!

Have a great week, everyone!