Out of in house S - On My Own (11)

[vise82]

Hey, had a good weekend with the kids, this is starting to feel like we are D. had no contact with her for days now. She is seeing the kids less as they go to her parents for two nights and almost three days.

It was GAL all weekend, skate park, car show, drive in movie, R/C car race. As you can tell all stuff i like, we had so much fun.

I met up with my old friend that w and I have kept the kids from seeing. Reason was he might tell my family where we lived. Thinking back this is unforgivable that she would suggest this. Part of her control of me. I am sure w knows now as kids would have told her.

its my life now, i call the shots.

at drop kid drop off it was just that, she had nothing to say to me. I got out as soon as i could.

left to go to my soccer, made an effort to talk to the other players.

Now I am home alone and this is where I have trouble. I freeze. I stall. I procrastinate.

What worked good was hiring the babysitter to help me unpack, I could direct, organize the work, plan the jobs and complete them.

It seems that when kids are not here it is the best time to clean up the house, and buy groceries and do all the laundry to get the house ready for when they come back. Baby sitter looks after them during the day here for three days.

I have not seen any change with W after I have pulled back. SHe has not come closer, in fact the opposite. we see less of each other now. She did invite me over last week to help with setting up a video game. I declined.

Looks like MR is slipping away into the nothing of D. It feels like there is nothing there right now, like its gone, never even happened.