Out of in house S - On My Own (11)

[vise82]

Hey

So things have been going ok. Very little contact with W. See her at kids soccer, had some money issues that we worked out, stuff left over from the S agreement.

Was getting new headaches, so I see my doctor and she want me to get more MRIs. Says I am doing good considering what has happened with the move and everything. I broke down in her office as it was all too much for me to do these type of tests again and this time W is not with me to help me through it, Just sad about that. Feel left on my own again, a little anger came out too.

Unfortunately this came out in front of my kids. I had to talk to them about how it had nothing to do with them. I think it scared them to see me like that.

I did reach out to my friend and that helped.

I have been having thoughts that maybe my W is dying and this is her way of getting me ready for when she is not going to be around. Forcing me on my own to deal with it before she passes.

Cheeseless tunnel.

So now I go on. One day at a time. Looking forward to when things will get better for me.