Glad to hear things are going good for you. I still struggle with my mom, I haven't "let it go" yet. How are things with your W?
Thanks for checking in. I've been out having the time of my life, and haven't been on here for a while.
6/25, went and did the group activity at my old house with FF#1. The wife of the guy who bought the house told me xW unfriended her on FB. I checked later, xW unfriended all our common friends. She apparently thinks they are all taking sides? It's her loss.
6/27, went to FF#1's house until 3:00 in the morning, talked lots, cuddled a litltle.
6/28&29, hung out with my kids. 7/1 had them again. 7/2, brought the kids and boat to FF#2's house, a group there, my kids hung out with FF#2's kids and FF#2's sisters kids. I brought all the kids tubing, I was the only adult out with the kids, and I had a blast, I know the kids did. 7/3 went there again. FF#1 met me there, helped with the kids, she got to meet my kids, and they got along well, that was good. That night, dropped the kids off with xW in person. I was smiling and happy at the drop off, xW was bitter and cold, wouldn't even look at me. It really did feel good to be taking the high road again.
After dropping off the kids, I met with FF#1 to watch fireworks from my cousin's house. FF#1 came home with me.
As of that night FF#1 is now GF. The innocent church-goer surprised me with her passionate kisses that didn't stop for the next 2 days while she spent the rest of the weekend with me. Saw her again last night, same thing. I'll be spending this weekend with her too. She's met my parents and my brother.
7/4, I met GF's family, which seemed to go very well.
GF and I both realize how perfectly we could fit our lives together, and both have to put conscious effort into slowing things down. I can tell by every word she says that she is head over heels in love. I feel the same. We connect so well, conversations are so great. She is uptight about things going too fast, but comments over and over about how she has never felt so safe with someone before, to be able to share with me, that I challenge her with a fresh perspective, etc. This is obviously quite the change from the feedback I received from xW. XW and I never did connect like that from day 1, I remember how we argued steady.
I fully realize that GF is filling a bunch of needs for me. We spend more time apart than together, which allows time for reflection of those facts. I try to take a step back from it every day, to make sure she is right for me. There is nothing about her that scares me away or raises any flags. I just can't find any reason for fear other than just simply avoiding rushing.
It is interesting to reflect on the last few weeks. My feelings about xW have completely changed. XW is bitter, that is her problem and has no effect on me. When I hear she does something with the kids, I am happy that the kids get to enjoy time with her. XW is making it a challenge for the kids though. XW is living with her mother (grandma P), the kids are completely fed up with that grandma, as she is a bitter bltch also, the kids say all she does is yell at them. Supposedly xW found a house, the kids are excited to get away from grandma P!
I move back into my house on the 15th. It is going to be so great!! I have the kids a lot those first few days. GF is already making plans to be there when I don't have the kids. Sounds like this is going to be a great summer after all.
I do plan to read V's post a few more times, and see what resonates with me. And a lot of thinking is needed how to best proceed with the new GF.
Thanks again to all my forum friends, you have all been a huge impact in my life!!!
