I'm going to make the call to the IC this afternoon.
First I thought I'd post this:
From yesterday around 4:45 through today at 8:15 she has called me around 8 times. 3 this AM, and I didn't answer. Then she texted to ask "what time are you leaving to get to preschool?" Don't know why this required so many calls, but I said "the normal time, around 4." She said she'd leave around the same time, and I said ok sounds good.
Two things: 1 - I know she's going to get to the preschool earlier than me, and will ask where I am. I'm going to use it as an opportunity to demonstrate (to MYSELF) I'm cooler about traffic and not freaking myself out. It's a specific example of "don't freak out about things you can't control." I've really been working on this, and I can feel the difference. It really affected my attitude when I got home, it was always under the surface even when I felt good having arrived.
2 - Is this what pursuit feels like? 8 calls in less than 24 hrs, to shoot the bull and ask 2 second questions? I can see why it's so unattractive. "OMG, her again?!"
I'm having a better day. With her making it a point to tell me, numerous times, she's going to the gym again and trying to "get back to who she used to be" I'm curious as to what she's going to say this afternoon. Not expecting anything (I swear! lol) just curious....
Me: 35 W: 32 S: 4 T: 6 M: 4 Physical Separation official: 5/21 Currently: DR/DBing, Focusing on me and son
Cheating on a good person is like throwing away a diamond and picking up a rock.