Zues, I'm sorry all of this is still happening. You deserve a break and the chance to move forward with your life without something that you never wanted hanging constantly over your head. I wish you strength to keep going, to keep getting out of bed and believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel. To fully believe you will make it through this and things will work out, somehow. We may not see how right now but one day it will happen and I truly hope its sooner rather than later.
Keep having a great time with those kids, that's what's it's all about and you're doing amazing there.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
