The begining of the rest of my new life? (3)

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Ripe, I do understand your thoughts and doubts around God.
I am sad to say that I cut that part out of my life over a decade ago after some very difficult challenges with my W.
Now I am not proud to say it but I knew I was wrong and for the past several years I was trying to find a way back to him.
In my heart I know that there is a higher power. I sense it. I feel it. My study of successful and happy people all show proof of the higher powers regardless of the religious background, culture and time in history.

Great men and women have suffered various things and stayed true to their faith, belief and commitment to God, and or the higher power.

I do not share this to convince you of what you should believe or not believe, but I do share this as my personal experience tells me that there is a higher power. A God and he/it wants me to progress, grow and become a better version of what I am and grow from the pain, challenges and obstacles that are before me.

I follow a man that is called the Hip Hop Preacher and he said that a flawed diamond is far more precious than a smooth stone.
You and I have our flaws that contributed to our situations. You and I must endure the pain of the decision from our STBX. You and I have a responsibility to our children no matter how it looks. You and I must go through the immense pressure that it takes to do these things and we can do so by remembering the pressure it takes to make that diamond. And that diamond with its flaws will still provide more value to our future surroundings than any smooth stone that did not endure what we will have.

Read the story of Job. It provides insight and hope. It is a reflection of what you are going though now in the early stages. Read the story in its entirety and know that you too, can come out on the other end and prosper.
Maintain your faith my brother. Do not let go of the hope.
I pray for you and your family and I do understand your internal conflict with God.

Be well and find some peace this day my friend. Stop and pause for even a moment and force yourself to see the good in an awful situation and you will, if even for a moment, feel the calm. That is the moment God can provide you comfort.