How do I get off the rollercoaster? Every thing he does and says I watch and when he's more withdrawn I get more anxious. I had a miserable night and most of the day. I stayed busy. Took a friend to chemo and we had a two hour drive one way to the city. Lots of time to talk. I realized that all my talk sounded like a victim. I hated it. I'm better than that. First steps here are so hard. I'm good with 180 when he's home and fall apart at night and when he's at work.
Me54 WH48 S18 D16 M 22 T 24 EA-PA-EA 2011-2015 Separated 10/14 - 06/15 BD1 02/14 BD2 05/16 BD3 08/21/16 and began drinking again Working on me and liking me again
