Cadets, it's not alanon that made me angry, it was the deeper realization that we've been here before so angry at the ditch and to me for not continuing with the group in the last year. They were great and supportive but they do not like to advise per season. We read more about detachment for me and I just cried. Made it hard to be cheerful and light at home when he got home an hour late from his AA mtg.
I went to bed early and did not sleep well, kept waking up and being sad and mad and yet another level of realizing how bad things are. When he did get home last night, he barely spoke and completely removed himself from a ditch where "we" we're saying no to our D driving to the city with a friend. They are only 16. I asked WH (in a text prior to the discussion) to please back me up. He agreed and in the conversation he starts backing away goes and puts on the tv! My D is crying, I'm consoling her yet staying firm and he doesn't comment. What a diff from yesterday!
I feel shakey inside in part from fear and part anger. I guess I haven't allowed myself anger at this point.
So back to the articles and rereading 180 etc and try to further my GAL plans. What else can I do? Right? Col
Me54 WH48 S18 D16 M 22 T 24 EA-PA-EA 2011-2015 Separated 10/14 - 06/15 BD1 02/14 BD2 05/16 BD3 08/21/16 and began drinking again Working on me and liking me again