im still in shock. i picked the kids up last night, and i stayed in my vehicle. they came out of the house and i could see her milling around behind the curtains watching. i dropped the kids off at my moms in the morning, and she will pick them up there later today. i haven't said a full word to her in 2 days. and i have a meeting with the lawyer tonight after work.
part of me wants this to be done, so i can move on. part of me says, what if she wakes up? i really should have followed through with this a year ago. i tried and tried and tried for months. and she strung me along the whole way. she is not capable of a relationship. it breaks my heart to know what is going to happen over the next several months to all of us. Me, Her the kids. we are all going to suffer greatly. and im so sick and tired of suffering. but, this is it. there is no getting out of this. i just need to try and make the best of every day. and love the kids. they didn't ask for any of this, and they deserve the best.
