Just journaling~ The night before last XH did page me at 11:00p to say: "I'm sorry for what I said to you. I don't know that I will ever be able to let go of the past. Sad old man"
I responded: "to bad you can't let go of the past. Meanwhile what happens to the present and future?....
Yesterday he told me that the meeting that was going to bring him to town was just cancelled. I told him he should come down any way and he said he just might.
Now I am back to being dark. No contact. He knows where I am.
<sigh>
What is it that makes people carry that old painful baggage around with them? Its almost like he is willingly doing that. Poor me, I'm a sad old man, because I can't get rid of the pain of the past.
Yet by doing that he creates MORE OF THE SAME pain over and over again.
How does someone choose to be so miserable, even after admitting that they could change and be happier?
And then the real kicker is that he is miserable, but seems to not want to totally loose me. Am I the only one who finds that odd and contradictory?
