Sotto, thank you for your advice. Frankly, I'm not in that mood - dinner, birthday present, special event... I use to make hotel reservation and plan for trip to the east coast as birthday gift for him in past 6 years. I will send a card or give me a text this year.
LouR,((hug)) thank you !! I'm still learning. I do feel lonely sometimes, specially during holiday. weekend, Husband and I had no kids so we spent most of our time together before bomb dropped; after that, I collapsed. I tried many things but then I realize it is a matter of time and it is a process of learning. First we face it, the fact that things are different, and deal with the damage husband brought to family. Start to find a new life style. I do everything for myself now. I always love Paris, traveled two times to Paris(I'm useless at french, I enrolled the French class years ago and I quit) There will be fourteen lessons on 7 weeks. the class begins next week.
Job, I'm speakin to myself, repeating it to myself - the best thing I could do/help him is leave him there, leave him in his world. Leave the space of growing, keep the silence and he could do the thinking. Am I on the right track ?
