Col, I'm so sorry to hear about your situation, and I'm going to tread lightly because I don't have much experience in dealing with a hibitual addict. What I will say is I've never read any situation where I thought it was more important for the LBS to focus on themselves. I don't think you said, but there doesn't seem to be kids involved, so you don't have child care to deal with, so I'd suggest you start finding things that make you happy and go do them. By your story, I'm pretty sure your far away from a city, so it may be difficult, but you need to put in the work and find your happiness.
What did you do before you got M? I've never lived in the country, so my exp. is limited on what there is to do, so I don't know what to suggest. What do you do now for fun? Do you have friends that you hang out with, maybe game nights and such. Do you hunt or go off-roading?
Your husband seems to have an addiction problem, and right now he seems addicted to going outside your M, take yourself out of the equation and I don't think it will be as addictive. Make yourself unattainable and maybe he will become addicted to winning you back.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized
