Building my life...

[mahhhty]

Hello All.

I hope you had a good 4th! Unfortunately, I didn't have my munchkins this year (I had them last year), but I had a good 4th nonetheless.

I sent the response Wonka and Co. graciously helped me write. She responded and we moved forward slightly. Email communication has been a little more prevalent but she still doesn't respond to any items that are out of her comfort zone. I've asked twice to meet to discuss the school situation as I see email being an inefficient medium, but she doesn't respond.

I have a long way to go with non-violent communication but I enjoy the concept and look forward to getting smarter within it.

I had an unfortunate but very therapeutic moment when I picked the kids up from her new house which the OM lives/owns with her. Its apparent, obvious and ridiculous of me to think otherwise. This is where I am. I'm not sure I had such acceptance until then. Painful? Yes. But no more painful that accepting that which I can not control. There would be many questions I would ask her in a perfect world, but honestly, none of it matters in the grand scheme. Acceptance of what I can not control came swiftly. Since that occurred a couple of weeks ago, I have meet 2 different girls who randomly gave me their numbers... Almost as if it was meant to be that way. I'm not in a rush and the idea of dating seems perhaps stressful, but it is undeniably my next step.

My children got me through the hardest part of my entire life. I miss them everyday I don't get to see them, and I love them unconditionally with every part of my being. I love being their father more than anything else and I will give up everything else to see them more. I want them to know each and every day that their dad loves them.