My third post - please be nice

[collin]

Oh, one more thing. I tried to mention going back to counseling. I thought MC went really well and I thought she did too. Because after it, we talked about it. Everything seemed really positive. Now she's saying she doesn't need counseling to fix our marriage, that she knows the problems and that I was trying to play the blame game during it. I told her I wasn't that I know our issues are a result of my actions (or lack of). But, I don't know. Is this all part of fear? Is she running? Does she not want to take into account she has hurt me? Every time I mention it, she deflects.

What do I do? I feel like we need to get back to counseling, because I think it's very helpful. But I can't just drag her there against her will. Should I maybe keep asking in passing if she would like to go? Or just put it aside for a while?

I almost feel like she's scared to go, because she's scared it may hurt.