3 Months since she said i dont love you (3)

[Natus]

Bad week in terms of GAL and Detaching.

Still going to gym and enjoying that but not much else. I still care way to much how my W feels.

I finally asked her if we can set a date for MC since she asked. Man it was like trying to pull a nail from a board. Litany of reasons why we should wait right etc money, work, festive season, timing. In the end i asked if we could just "pick" a date in near future and work towards that. So we will go to our first MC in 3 weeks from now.

I should have just left it be at that but noo i had to initiate an R talk. I basically asked if she still wants to go cause even though she is the one that asked for it there has been nothing but excuses everytime i bring it up.

In the end she admitted that part of her reason for asking for MC was to see if it would help us separate amicably but she also says she doesnt know the outcome i.e still unsure.

We will be visiting families this week with Eid. Going to be spending alot of time together. Plus she wants to go for a road trip together on weekend. I need to set myself a goal to be super detach and super validate.