Hi Water!
It has been a long time...
((((({{Water}})))))
Well, after catching up on your situation and remembering some of your previous threads, it looks to me as if your H is very depressed and insecure. Remember how he was saying he was a terrible father, and now he says he is a relationship destroyer... his self esteem is in the toilet and he is very depressed. He likes talking to you and spending time with you because you make him feel better, and I'm sure the helps him feel good, too!
However, this back and forth is terribly hard on you. And it looks like he can't firmly give you an exclusive committment. I think the 30 break is actually a good idea for both of you. And you have the right idea in that you want him to meet the standards you would have for any relationship. That is fair, and you need to respect yourself...
Hope fully his counselor can help him get to the bottom of his self esteem and depression issues. Clearly he has been an excellent father and you guys have managed to stay together for SO long before all this madness started, and seem to have done OK... so he is definately in la-la land on that one too.
30 days isn't that long really, and you could use a break from the drama as well, don't you think?
Maybe we could get together and shoot some pool or have a drink....
Anyway, hang in there,
talk to you soon,
SG

Survival Goddess
"The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker