Also, I am so behind in rent and having to condense my apartment in to a temporary rental room and a storage unit. Our lease is up. Im sad bc its the last big thing we shared together and now its going away. I'm sad because I want to live with my H again. I'm sad bc I have to do this and I just miss him so much.

I want a 2nd chance at this marriage. Feels like my heart is crying and hot inside my chest.


"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."