Just a quick update... Not sure if I belong here or not, but gosh you all are such good friends and it would be like moving to another city, just not ready to do that...
Anyway, last Thursday I went to dinner with oldest S and XH called my cell. I didnt' answer it but he called back again so I answered that time. He said he was deciding if he was going to come down to golf in a tournement on Fri. I said come on down.
We talked about getting together. He said he wanted to see me, but didn't want to cause me issues. I asked if he was seeing anyone, and he said that he had no plans to have a R with anyone. I asked if he was sleeping with anyone and he said no. He said he would call me when he got in and let me know what he was going to do.
He called and said that he was just not at a good place. That he was not good for anyone and didn't want to subject me to it. I told him OK and that I wanted it to be positive for both of us and if it didn't work for him that was ok.
About 30 min later he called back and said that he really wanted to see me. That for one night he was going to put his mental problems aside and see me. That he would go home and spend the rest of the weekend being depressed.
He came over and spent the night and my house.
I was not clingy or needy at all, as a matter of fact, I didn't even walk him to the door.
Saturday afternoon H sends me a text message: I am taking 30 days to be alone. I hope you understand, but WOW what a night with you!
I page him that I understand and yes WOW the night was great. If he needed anything to let me know and that he was in my prayers.
Several hours later he text messages again: I love you
This morning a little after midnight he calls me. Said he couldn't sleep. We only talk for a few minutes.
I don't know what the 30 days alone meant. Is he taking time off from work? or just not trying to see me?
