Self-indulgence is just what the doctor ordered! It sounds like you are doing all the right things to heal yourself and make you the best Painter there is! You should be proud of yourself.
M 10yrs T 13yrs BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce April '17-Letting go 2018 D busted DD8, DS6, DS3