Of course you still have those feelings ! They won't go away right away and I am sure you will have weeks where you feel like you did with not wanting to even see her and then BAm....you want to confess your love for her
But what's really changed with her for you ? Probably nothing. We have similar stories as I am moving a few blocks from stbx. Last week I hated her and the last day or so I was super lonely thinking about her a lot ! But she is still the same.
I don't have answers for you except your feelings are normal. And you should try to focus on you and not worry if she is seeing someone or not. If you need closure to move on you may need to approach that D talk.....especially if the door is shut but sounds like it's still a bit open for u ?
_________________________ Me-48 Spouse-WAW 52 Married for 10 years D7 ILYBNILWY 7/15 Suspect EA/PA 12/15 No confirmation/denial She files 1/2016 Working towards the Big D ...still in progress....