Phoebe, you've been with your H for so long, I can't imagine what it must feel like to be alone. I was well into my 30's when H and I married, and I had been an independent and self-sufficient person for most of my adult life before that. It's still so incredibly hard to not be part of a couple anymore.
I made a huge change in my life, though, moving from another part of the world and leaving all my family and friends and career behind. I don't think H understands how abandoned that makes me feel now.
But - I am happy to report another tear-free day. It's going on a week now!
I'm also staying active - my son and I took the dog to a large off-leash area this morning so she got some good exercise and we had a lovely walk in perfect weather. Afterwards we just hung out at home, but I got several important financial and legal things taken care of so I feel quite accomplished. We made a chicken pasta salad for dinner, so some cross-generational kitchen collaboration here, too!
I got my paint supplies organized and packed up to bring to the studio, and then helped my son decorate some more on his deck (it needed a woman's touch!). We found a nice metal 3-tier shelf on sale at a garden center yesterday and set it up today, and I'm going to get some herbs in pots to put on it. We also picked up an interesting saddlebag style pot to hang on the railing and I planted some showy impatiens in it. My next suggestion is to get some decorative lights for the deck railing so it's nice to sit there in the evening without having the big light on.
He has also given me the go-ahead to hang some things in my room, and I'm going to spend my tax return on getting my belongings moved up here (they are in storage back in the state I lived in with H). I think I need to make it feel more like my own space here, even if it's not really.
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17
