Painter, I love to hear this new direction for your thoughts. And to hear that you are having stretches of happiness again. I agree that it feels lonelier to do things by yourself when you wish you could be sharing them with someone who is important to you. Worse still was if you stopped doing the things you enjoyed because your partner did not want to share them with you. It's time to get you groove back on.
"perhaps it's the freedom that's starting to feel good" That is wonderful.
I'm really starting to feel separate from my WH, and it is a whole new experience for me. Every single memory and major decision of my entire adult life involved him, and lately, I'm starting to see hints of a life without him in it. I'm already seeing that I can form new friendships, and start doing new things. Not that I don't have tough days or am in some miraculous, tear-free state, but I am starting to think a bit differently, and I think that's both good and necessary.
I am glad to see that you are voicing some of the things that I am just starting to get an inkling of. Progress may be slow, but it's happening for both of us.
Good night, Miss Painter. You've come a long ways in a short time.
H: 44, Me: 45 Married: 20 y Together: 25 y no kids Walk away: 12/15 Asked for temp separation 12/25/15 PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had) H filed for D 5/16
