Basically, my feelings for W I have found go up and down. After a end of school concert one of my kids was in that W and I sat together to watch the feelings came back to me. The fog came back a little. We talked a little not R talk yet. Just about kids and care for them over the summer.
I was hoping this would not happen and was surprised it did. I was so over her.
Its so frustrating as I want to move forward, then this happens. She was surprisingly not mad at me for not looking after the kids when she asked, she told me she is just not going to go on the trip and wedding.
her choice.
She asked me to switch a sat with her as she wants to bring the kids to a cottage, so i agreed. I am not going to stop the kids from having these types of trips.
Its the limbo that is not fun. I have had interest in other women. I cant go ahead with as I feel I am still married. I am not sure how to proceed. Now we are not in house together, i have no idea if she is seeing other guys. I wish I knew as if she has I would just move on. I want to just ask her but i am afraid of the answer. Also she could just lie. When it comes down to it i guess i am looking to end this R first but I am still holding on, I dont want to but here i am. With a sliver of hope. Part of me is wanting to tell her how i am feeling.
Today I dropped the kids off, we talked about bills. I left. then after she calls asking me to help her set up a new computer system. I gave her advise on the phone but i was not going over to her house. Partly because its DBing, and partly because i would be a wreck after leaving her place if i went.
I want to shake this off, to shed the feelings. but there is still something there for me. UGHHHHHH
Me late 30's W mid 30's T 15, M 10 S4, S7 ILYBNILWY June 2015 In house S July 2015 W rings off Oct 2015 My ring off Feb 2015 Separate houses June 2016
