My wife walked out 3

[RSG]

Well DBers, Major Temp Check #2 just occurred.

She had texted a few times about what we were doing, and I gave her sparse answers about 30 minutes apart. She wants to come over tomorrow and spend time with both of us. She said we could go with her to the lake, or she would come here to the pool. I said, you can spend the afternoon (or something) with S as I need to run errands. He will be with me Sunday, as she needs to get to bed early for the Peachtree Road Race Monday. She'll start the Race around 7, and the drive in is nearly an hour from where she is now.

She Facetimed, and was bawling. Her face was all red and tears streaming from her eyes. She talked to S, but he was exhausted, drinking milk and then ran to the potty. She asked if she could speak to me, and we talked. Said the same junk "Are you happy?" and "I'm really proud of you." I didn't answer, just said I had a great day with S. She asked me to think about joining them tomorrow, and I said I'd think about it. Let her speak to S again, and she looked at him bawling saying "you look just like daddy, I love you so much" numerous times. "Don't forget that I love you to the moon and back." She also mentioned it's really difficult for her to take care of him.

She said her Dad told her to go to the gym and start running again. I didn't say anything, because her waywardness began with joining a new gym; but, I've always encouraged her to run more (prior to walking out of course). She's getting a bigger tummy, eating poorly and not keeping up with her appearance like she used to.

Told me she's getting an apartment near us in a few weeks, and said her Dad would help her. She'll likely ask me, but I can't see myself helping my W move into an apartment. Ha. That thought scared the devil out of me before, but her getting an apartment would be good actually. It would be great for S, but if anything positive were to happen we would be close.

That brings me to this: I felt sorry, but didn't react. I didn't fall into the trap like I did before. No tears, no fear, just emotionless and stuck to the topics at hand. I almost smiled, which is something I do when I'm nervous, but didn't. I've decided I need to hear 4 words before I contemplate any future with her other than being Son's Mom. "Will you forgive me" or some variation thereof. Yes, they are words not actions, but it would be a sign of humility from someone I know isn't very humble in nature. She hates to show vulnerability.

I thought of 100 reasons that could've sparked this. OP is getting sick of things, she won't see S for very long after tomorrow for the next 2 weeks, she said she had to fire someone, depression, missing S, missing me, blah blah blah. They all went through my head like a plane taking off a runway. I'm focused on being the best Daddy possible, and when he's not here being an even better me than I've ever been.

No expectations. No false hope. "Will you forgive me" or bust. That's my motto. I don't want a divorce, but I can't forget what she's done because of a couple crying episodes. I'm proud of myself!