If I had to distill all of that ^^^^ into one sentence it would be this:
Do you want a Mexican standoff or save the M?
LOL, I thought of the Mexican standoff analogy too... damned if I do, damned if I don't..
For what it's worth, although I move the goal posts in my thread, I haven't said a word to W about R since MC on Tuesday. I recognize that I need to figure out what I want to do, I know I want to save M just need to figure out what the best path is to get there.
I've been thinking about it since yesterday, and my thought is to wait until academy is complete to figure out where I go from there. We are having a good time together right now, she knows the Firehouse messes with my head and she tries to be sensitive to that, and she asked me out tonight. All in all, I don't need to be in a hurry, I have time on my side to see how much the academy/firehouse actually interferes with our piecing.
I am trying to take advice at arms distance, but I really really appreciate the different perspectives. It seems to me that all WS share similar traits, and that the same actions are needed by all to get them out of the fog. But it seems that once out of the fog, it doesn't seem that what works is so well defined.
What I do know is that contact with OM or not, my W is almost completely back to who she was prior to this whole mess started. My issues have been that back to where we were is not good enough, we need to put in more work and pay more attention to each other.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized