Toast - burnt or just right

[rich4j]

Journaling before hopefully a fun filled July 4th vac with some friends and D7!

It will be a month now when I will be out of the house and on my own with of course shared custody of D7. Its been a whirlwind this past week with anger, spewing and resentment coming from STBX. I just don't get it and look to those like a Sandi2 to explain or others how this happens?

It is a week of crazy ups and downs as our paperwork is done at least temporarily until we can figure out the financial mess. Things in place to protect both of us really and now IT FEELS real!

She has spewed and spewed. The craziest was in an argument about splitting up stuff she says " Well why don't you just go F*** your girlfriend then!" WHATTTT? Unfortunately I haven't been with someone since this mess happened a year ago. SHE is the one who has denied and hidden her long distance affiar! PROJECTION? I was shocked and had to laugh at her.
Then the continuous "we wouldn't be here" if you treated me fairly and nice and its all your fault.

This from a woman who has burned relationships with neighbors, family members, former work places etc....

I am excited about getting out of here but still bitter I let her push me out the door of our residence but really just thought solely about what is best for our D7. Excited about my new place although its only a few blocks from the old but did that again for my D7. Scared about the quiet, loneliness and starting over again on my own.

Have a happy and safe 4th!