I don't know, Coconut. It all feels like a big mess.
Your wife's letter made sense to me. I can relate to the need to find a passion as your kids leave home. I can understand why she feels she can't count on you to be there forever. I might be getting people mixed up, but S is from a previous relationship, right? So some of the trust issues might be holdovers from her first relationship.
And although I put my H first in my life now, if we divorced and I somehow ended up in another M while I still had kids at home, I would put my kids ahead of the new M.
And even now, I could see theoretical situations where I would put the needs of my kids ahead of H's needs.
I wonder if response to her letter will split along gender lines, or if I'm just odd.
Me: 44 H: 44 Kids: 20, 16, 16, and 10 Together/Married: 22 years H announced he was emotionally detached and considering D: 4/4/16 H announced he is going to try to stay and reconnect: 5/1/16