Hi love, so sorry about your friend's health news. You are doing quite well however, and I get what you're asking about the closure. You know, you don't need H to have that. You can do your own private work on closure by meditating and inviting his higher self in to then say whatever you feel needs to be said/completed between you. Just a thought I'd like to offer up in case you may find it helpful.

xoxoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver