ive said it before, she drives me crazy. i took off work the last few days and we have been taking day trips with the kids. we get along great. but as friends only.
in one sentence, she talks about our future together. doing this and doing that. but in the next sentence, she is totally wayward. she enjoys not having the kids around when they sleep over at my place. and im having a hard time building trust. she filters a lot of what she is telling me and how she is feeling.
i really hate this. i hate that she wont just commit to our marriage. that we are stuck in this testing period. but i really cant see myself living without her. we are sooooo close. so close to making this work and both of us be happy. but on the other hand, so far away. and its a double threat. #1 she is still getting over her OM. #2 we still need to work through what got us to this point.
i understand her hesitation to a point. but for the love of God, jump into the pool already. stop dipping your toes in.
