Don't know what to do

[stacey9]

Hi Raliced, great to hear from you, hope you give us an update soon. Yes I did always think they had the perfect existence and it seems that wasn't the case. Even though he's going back to OW I still feel they must have had pretty major problems to make him act like he did.

Thanks again for you input Sotto I believe I do deserve better. I've always been attracted to him ever since high school, he is incredibly handsome, clever, funny, and when he focuses his attention on you, you feel like youre the only person in the world. Pathetic but true. He ticks all my boxes. But his faults are all too evident too, he is very critical, bad tempered, and can completely turn every argument around to make it look like it's your fault. He is still blaming me for the break up - my jealousy and insecurity issues. Although I fully accept my part in the split he has been unable to admit his part. He says he gave up trying years ago.

I think he will always be looking for his next thrill as he becomes bored easily. He likes the thrill of the chase which is why I think he pursued me for the last few months - I was not available for him. I was getting on with my life happily, in fact I hadn't seen him for months before he started showing an interest in me.

Although I hadn't put my life on hold waiting for him, at the back of my mind I always hoped he'd regret his decision and realise it was me he loved. For a few months there I believed that to be true. I've read about the fog lifting and I thought that had happened. Sadly not.

Thank you all for the wisdom and support I totally appreciate it.

Thanks for the hugs Maybell xx