My wife walked out 2

[RSG]

Not much today so far.
WW texted last night "kiss him goodnight for me" after I said "you missed bedtime again." I just said ok.

She came over this AM to pick S up, we got him ready to go, she mentioned she had a meeting and was visibly exhausted. I still find her attractive on the outside, but what's on the inside right now is all I see. She didn't say anything about the concert, missing bedtime, who she went with, etc. The old me would've lit into her about being selfish and asked a bunch of questions, but I just thought "will this help me reach my goals" and the answer was no. It doesn't really matter the details, she put nonsense over S. That's not the woman I fell in love with and wanted to be with for the next 50 years.

I didn't have to work to go emotionless around her as Sandi advised, her actions have done that. I'm going darker, which is much easier during the week for me. I'm not losing my temper nearly as much, with her or in traffic, w/S, etc. I picked back up the 5 love languages. It's great, I need to buy my own copy. I'm resigned to D, but doing nothing to instigate any talks and instead just taking one day at a time. I wear cologne daily, try to be friendlier and more outgoing. I'm even contemplating buying a pink shirt, a HUGE 180 for me lol. Symbolism more than anything.

I love my son and enjoy every second with him. I guess I shouldn't have any expectations for her to do the right thing, but when she disappoints S it gets under my skin. Last night he said "call Mommy" around the time she usually does, and he's never uttered that phrase before. Since this crap started, I've stopped whatever I'm doing and given him 5 minutes of my time to say goodnight. Because I love and miss him. I'm very disappointed she's gone from Super Mom to just good/average Mom, but as Sandi said WW's don't give a hoot about anything but themselves.