I don't think I was ready to accept your advice until now. My W's attitude towards me changes all the time so I am never sure weather she means what she says but now that I am about to move into my own rented house, she has said that she we spend too much time together and I need to only see the kids at my place. I accept that I wanted to go to see the kids at our home because for short periods, everything felt normal and I could spend time with my W even if only to make small talk. It was like a short respite from my day to day nightmare and disbelief that the divorce was actually happening and gave me hope that little by little she may come round. Well, it hasn't worked. She says she was miserable in the marriage but likes the person I am now. It still doesn't change anything though and I just don't know if it ever will. I figure that if I was to start again with someone else, my current routine would not be acceptable. Also, I am getting tired of being knocked back and told that I can't let go.
I am not sure if keeping my distance will improve the situation with my w but I am open to suggestions as she seems to watch and wait until I am coping better and then reals me back in by doing and saying nice things to me. It's as if she knows that I am distancing myself from her or even senses it. I don't want to push her away as we have to co-parent our D4 and D8 and keep a reasonable relationship, but is there an easier or more productive way to navigate through all this?
I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?
