Detachment, anxiety and the end of limbo 2

[Phoebe]

Sotto, it sounds like our fathers were both cut from the same cloth. That totally sounds like how my father would respond and even his words. Like yours, my father has been there so many times for me, but emotional support is definitely not his forte. Thank you for chiming in and for your thoughts.

Hi Painter! If I could box and ship that would be absolutely ideal, but there's just too darn much of it. I'll transport it to the house at some point and get rid of it. I definitely have to get it consolidated, because it's taking over my life right now. It's like the closets and drawers threw up! It's been there since Monday because I haven't felt like dealing with it again. I just walk by and have been trying to ignore it all.

SH, as always, it is so good to know you're still stalking me. . Seriously, though, I am glad to see you are still here, giving comfort, encouragement, 2x4s, or whatever else you think I need most. It means a great deal to me.

So, my L wanted me to check in I the house because no one is living there right now and she thinks I need to verify the state of the place. (Make sure there are no situations being neglected, no evidence of vandalism, etc..) I absolutely think I should go check it out for those very reasons, but I just don't want to go alone
anymore unless it's unavoidable. It's just too painful to go there now. Everywhere I look there I see H's rejection of our like, from the photos buried out of sight to the gifts I gave him piled up and rejected. It hurts my heart.

Today was an OK day. Not great, but not too.bad, either, I went strawberry pmilkshake cling in the afternoon with my waking/cultural event friend. Then I drove home, offloaded the berries for my mom to clean and freeze, and then I met my L friend for biking and dinner. Do, I'm doing things and getting out. I'm falling asleep as I tap, so I'll sign off. Sleep very well, my friends.