My wife walked out 2

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Thanks Hawker.

Not much to report from last night. We Facetimed, and she was a little stand offish, but we still laughed and joked and told S goodnight.

This AM, Facetimed around 7:20. Actually spoke for about 20 minutes again. Spoke about S, work, why she went to the clinic yesterday, why traffic was so bad, etc. She said "your Dad is drawing up our papers right" and I said huh? I didn't bring it up again, but she said that "came out wrong" later she mentioned getting pictures done by her boss for the holidays as we usually had, but made it a point to say we won't get any together. I just said sure as that's 5 months off.

We were talking about an incident at school with S, and why she wants him in the other camp for a week. I agreed because it sounds like S is in a poor place there. But I will not be paying. Also, I find out she has a separate work account she uses to text as suddenly the messages I get aren't from her phone. Bing. Wish I didn't know that, but I saved it in my phone as it can be used later if necessary. I mention the ID for this work account shows a pic of S, she confirms and says nothing else about it. She knows I know what it means. Honestly, the anger I felt last week has dissipated. It's more of disappointment, and knowing I WILL teach my S that betraying those that love and care about you is wrong 100% of the time.

Her threats/mentions of D don't phase me like they used to. I'm not so scared anymore. I ask myself every time an incident pops up "Who is this woman" "Do I even like this new person" "Why does she forget so much about S" "The only positive consistent thing about her in the last 6-8mos has been she's a good teacher" And so on. Sad, but reality.

My Dad is an atty, but he's an IP Litigator. He could give a mediator a coherent list of stuff we've agreed on, but nothing near concrete and it would only be a VERY minor start. She hasn't researched 2 seconds on divorce lol.

I'm losing my attachment, that's for sure. I guess I've kind of dropped pretty quickly since it's been about 6 weeks where I've gone from I LOVE YOU ALWAYS to.....do I want to be with you? Makes my decisions easier, but it makes me sad for my S as he loves his Mommy dearly. I wish she were the woman he thinks she is.

Anyway, that's where I am. S is coming home tonight, and we're going to have a great time!!!!