What should I be Doing (piecing 6)

[Coconut]

Sandi2,

I agree, I feel like her she was honest in her letter, she let me know why she doesn't want to quit the academy and was truthful in saying that she doesn't know if she can count on me. For the record, none of that has been said by her before the letter.

I appreciate that she wrote it, I appreciate that she finally shared her feelings/thoughts for me, that was a big part of my frustration, is she has been reserved in sharing with me. I am comfortable with what she said, I own my mistakes and have vowed for myself that I will live this life, I will not allow myself to sit in front of the TV drinking as life goes by. I am a better coconut than I was, and am still working on being the best coconut possible.

MC went well last night, we dove a little into the pain from her infertility, which needs to be resolved because it is a source of a lot of pain for her, and to a lesser extent me too.

And one last thing that will go a long ways towards helping me, I had mentioned joining the Fire department when W and I were having troubles before I knew about the A, and she shot that down telling me that it was her thing and I needed to find something else to do.

Well, she said that at the time she was against it because of the A, but now she thinks it would be great if I joined also, and started the next class in February of next year. That says a lot to me, and I think that will go a long ways towards me feeling better about the department, even if I end up not joining.

So for now, I'm in a good spot, but anyone following this thread that me saying that doesn't usually mean much, and the next emotional disaster is just around the corner, but I'm hoping that's not the case and I can move forward on an even keel.