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I had another appointment with my IC yesterday. I think she is helping me but I am definitely getting the vibe she doesn't think I should worry about getting back in my MR. I look at her diplomas and certificates and one of them is a MC. I don't think I would want to go with to her for MC if I had to. But she is working on make ME a happier person and I know that's going to help me in the long run all the way around. My homework I have to do is make 5 goals to do just for me. I'm having a hard time coming up with 5 goals. I've got 3 down (start a class, get a tattoo, run the Ravenel Bridge). I know I will come up with something soon.

After I got out of my IC session I texted my WAW about having lunch. She still hadn't responded after 3 hours so I texted her saying if she didn't want to do it because she didn't feel right then it was okay and it was just a thought. She replied she wasn't sure yet and would let me know. I told her it was just as friends and nothing more and I promised her that.

She responded immediately and suggested a place neither of us had been to and agreed on a time (this Thur at 1 PM). I reiterated that I was inviting her for lunch as friends and nothing more. She told me she believed me. I am happy about it and I really am going to focus on us just as friends. I will not bring up any kind of R talk unless she does and hopefully I will able to navigate through that minefield if it comes up. I still expect her to decline or come up with an excuse not to go, but I will take betterm's advice and still go and leave the invitation open.

We then texted a few more times, manly about a few things I'm selling out of the house. I've sold a couple of things and we've split the money. She wants me to sell the Halloween stuff and I'm kind of reluctant to do that. At one time we had thousands of $$ in Halloween decorations and people would come drive by to look at our house and during Halloween night we would have mini-tours of the inside of our house. She loved Halloween and the thought of getting rid of it seems to symbolize the death of our MR. Of course I could look at it as a way of getting rid of the old to start with the new. I may junk it and tell her I sold it and give her a "share" of the money. I have to figure out what I'm going to do.