Sorry to hear about your weekend. My Sunday night was kind of a headspinner too (I'll post laster). I'm still catching up on your posts while replying.
Quote: I just had to get nasty, I couldn't keep my PMA up any longer. What a lousy DBer I was.
I don't think I need to break out the 2x4 on you, it sounds like you know you slipped. What we are doing is hard. It's hard to let things go all the time, it's hard to not be able to express ourselves fully when we don't feel we're getting our needs met. But try not to let things run away from you. You are the only one who can control your behavior. I hope I'm not being hard on you, I don't mean to, I think you've been do a super job at DBing over all.
Quote: I'm just in this trap all day of old behavior and I don't know how to stop.
Just stop, I know you can, you've done it a hundred time by now.
Quote: He says he wants me there and I should know I am always invited.
Repeat aloud to self, "I am always invited, I am always invited,..."
Your goals look really good, very clear and explicit (and I love the multi color layout! I'm also very impressed that you are developing positive strategies for yourself if the goals aren't met. VERY good!
I'm also very impressed that you are developing positive strategies for yourself if the goals aren't met. VERY good! 
