Ah, Sunny, RD, Esame and Rouky - you are all kind indeed & thank you for the moral support!
Well, I have been busy for sure! Out with a friend on Sunday and then working away last two days. Yesterday we had a big job to do and stayed until almost 8pm. It was fun and we had some good laughs over pizza whilst we finished the job off. Today I'm off and I just remembered I have a lunch date with a friend and then yoga tonight. Monday was salsa too....lots going on.
NG is moving house this week (into his newly purchasing place after renting for over 2 years) - we got him a new home card & colleagues signed it. Not seen him this week though. All quiet with XH too - tho I imagine a few things will crop up in coming weeks. He's off to the marital home this weekend to do some clearing out. Then his XW1 is going in weekend after that to take some stuff she wants (a bit unusual but I'm fine with that - I have any stuff I wanted now.)
I've been thinking lately that the door is really closed now from my end with XH. That's fine - but I do think about the fact that after BD we literally met once a month later and then nothing. Only a couple of phone calls since and everything else by email. It wasn't a great ending to the M and I worry about there being a big unsealed wound there. Do we just not do anything to 'close things down' if you get my meaning? Do we not meet at some point and have some kind of 'forgiveness' conversation? Fact is, I wouldn't want to meet him (and certainly not OW) at events going forward - and I probably wouldn't need to unless I'm invited to a big event for SS (graduation, wedding etc)...but does it then remain an unhealed rift with someone who was important in my life?
Other than this I'm doing okay. I heard from our mutual friend this week with the bad news that she has been diagnosed with cancer. It looks like it is in the early stages but she will know more after an appointment this week. I'm not sure if XH knows, but I will leave her to tell him if she wants to. He hasn't really been keeping in touch with her and it is a shame because I think she tried to be a good friend to both of us when BD happened.
Reflecting, I have been the one in our lives who kept in touch with people....even XH's family. From what I hear, he isn't doing much keeping in touch with anyone and is very much into his new city life & OW etc. Then he wonders why he feels empty and a disconnect. Fact is you do get back what you give out. But anyway, that's on him...
Other than this, I'm doing fine. Going to prod the house stuff a little today and make sure everything is moving as I'm due to be out of the flat in four weeks - eek!
Thanks for reading xxx
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
