I've been married for 5 years and together with W for 8. We have 2 children aged 2 and 3.
During our marriage I have had a number of insecurities. I also became depressed a couple of years ago, started drinking and choosing to sleep on the couch.
About 5 weeks ago we started to argue terribly, this was down to me suspecting her of having an affair. I had no evidence of this and it was a though in my head due to being paranoid. This thought grew and grew to the point I was accusing her daily, checking up on her, going through her drawers and pretty much doing everything to find a trace of an affair.
She told me 5 weeks ago that ILYBINILWY, she said that she wanted to fall back in love with me and work at the marriage.
I couldn't seem to let the issue go though and I've really driven her to despair, my wife started to lie about things as she was scared of my reaction to it and knew it would cause an argument, I've never been violent, last Wednesday she lied about where she was so i packed her bags and took them to her mums.
W told me at this point there is no going back. That was a week ago.
She has since told me that she wants to be a family together, and do things with the kids such as go on holidays etc and she has moved her things back in the house. She has still said there is no going back for us.
I've spent the last couple of nights away from the house as I am still being argumentative and suspicious of her and causing arguments.
I've been to the doctors and been referred to a psychologist and have been given anti depressants.
I feel as though I've had a breakdown, in the first few years of marriage I was outgoing and made my wife laugh a lot.
She has messaged me asking if I'm ok and that she loves and cares about me and wants me to get help.
She has discussed selling the house and buying my share out a number of time already, she has calmly said its over between us, but she still maintains that she wants us to be a family together and live together for a while for the sake of the kids.
I love my wife dearly , I don't want to lose her but I understand that I've been the most difficult person to live with the past 5 weeks and she tried and tried to stay together, I just kept pushing her away.
I fear I'm too late to salvage anything as husband and wife.
Please any advise anyone could give to me would be great
