Mozza- I could swear I left a post 4 or 5 days ago - but it seems to have disappeared. Drat - it was one I wrote in a rare moment of silence and was more put together than usual. Oh well...
FWIW, while it sounds like you are doing well, I'm still sorry about NG, as I had the impression that was not the outcome you were hoping for.
And about this..
Originally Posted By: Mozza
I had a talk with my perceptive bio mom who told me that I was not over STBX, visibly. She could hear it in the way that I talk about her, even angrily. I'm shaken by that. It's probably true: I haven't digested most of the D. I'm still bitter, I've strong feelings of aversion for STBX, I'm afraid of still loving her, etc. I've been denying it for 8 months, but now's a good time to reflect on this.
I'm sorry you felt shaken by this revelation - but I can't say I'm surprised. Like most things that involve humans, I suppose there is a range of the time needed to heal from such a primal rejection, but I'm sure that for many it is a pretty significant length of time. And there are some, like you, who seem to be able to work on it, while still dating other people - and I admire that. Personally, I'm quite sure that if I tried to date now, it would be more about trying to prove something to my bruised ego instead of enhancing my life - so I think it's wiser for me to wait. Kudos to you for being able to move ahead. Glad to read your updates.
