Out of in house S - On My Own (11)

[vise82]

Hey, What do I want, Well I did not want this. I was flat out open about my wanting to get MC and do the best two grown adults with kids can, to stay true to a MR commitment that was made to each other.

Now I want as little contact with her as possible, to just live my life with out fear of reprisal. To follow the agreed upon S agreement and terms. To fulfill my own pursuits and interests. To have the best time with my two boys.
Maybe I don't belong on here anymore. I think she is too far gone, too far away. Not the same girl I married. And this all happened in less that a year. I just see so many road blocks, she is living a world away from me. She has filled the gap that was me with others and I don't see a place where I even fit in.

I am working on me. I have my own world now. Its just how it is now. The fog has lifted from me. I see her for what she is. I don't like what I see.