Lost at the moment

[lfm]

Thanks hawker! Congrats on the win for UA last night. We'll see how the game tonight goes.

Last night was okay, went to the house under construction and found some more progress had been completed (countertops and tile work was all complete), which makes that part exciting.

The rest of the night was pretty uneventful. Asked my W about feeling like we need to let the kids know that we are having some struggles and working through that. I think they can see something is different but do not know what exactly. Maybe she is right in not saying anything. I just hate to think of potententially getting to the point where we have to tell them we are getting D as it's my oldest daughters senior year of high school. I feel like giving them some warning may help them mentally prepare a bit rather than it just being a big bomb dropped on them in the middle of the year (not that anything will be decided in the next 12 months). I probably shouldn't have even brought it up last night...

Like many have said in other forum discussions, my W is no longer the person I fell in love with. I don't know if she ever will be again. I'm in it for the long hall, but don't see any hope right now of her ever returning to the person I want to be with. Maybe I'm just venting my frustration with the whole situation. I's only been about 3 months since I found out about the EA/PA, and know there's a long ways to go. Definitely feeling like my progress over the weekend of detaching has swung back the other way. I don't know that I can identify what triggered the backslide, but feeling pretty down today. Hopefully I can focus my energy on work and get through the day okay.

Thanks for reading and for the support!