Thanks Grl, I will keep that in mind. In the last few weeks she has sent several emails and texts about the kids with the odd comment thrown in about herself.
When she was in the house, I did overhear a conversation with a friend that she was complaining how I wasn't happy with the way she loved me... I know so much more now about myself that she would love me by her LL's but didn't know mine. It's not all her fault since I'm learning some of these things about myself. She would thank me for everything, even if it was folding laundry or putting stuff away, I'm more of a physical touch than WoA so I know now how a big hug or kiss would have filled me more than a thank you for something that just needed to get done. Something more spontaneous if you will.
Why does it take a crisis to really learn about yourself? I know what I'm learning now will put me in a good position going forward, I get, and I did get her before, my W but I have seen how she has not really understood or 'got' me. When I read this books and stuff, I see how my 'love tank' or 'account', whichever word works, had been empty for a long time. Top that of with not doing anything for myself, there was nothing left to give.
I know how important it is to look after myself right now, to focus on me and the kids. I feel there are signs she is missing them but still on her own path for now. I feel more like my old self and my confidence in myself growing again, I will continue to improve and learn.
